美麗與哀愁

1778 年春天,
莫札特和媽媽從德國 Mannheim 啟程前往巴黎,
這趟路, 走了差不多十天


三月二十三日, 他們抵達巴黎,
大約三個月後, 六月中, 莫札特的媽媽生病了


病發兩個禮拜, 她就走了


She died quite unconscious,
and her life went out like a light.

She confessed three days before,
took the sacrament, and received extreme unction.
The last three days, however, she was constantly delirious,
and to-day, at twenty minutes past five o'clock,
her features became distorted, and she lost all feeling and perception.

I pressed her hand, I spoke to her, but she did not see me,
she did not hear me, and all feeling was gone.
She lay thus till the moment of her death, five hours after,
at twenty minutes past ten at night.








在書信的字裡行間, 莫札特似乎鎮定而且勇敢


By the mercy of God I have borne it all with firmness and composure.
When the danger became imminent, I prayed to God for only two things--
a happy death for my mother, and strength and courage for myself;
and our gracious God heard my prayer and conferred these two boons fully on me.




可是, 在那之前他沒寫過像 K. 304 這樣的作品
尤其是第二樂章, 深深的懷念與哀思, 最後淚流不止, 無法壓抑的痛哭,
一路行來, 卻是一首小步舞曲, 不是跌跌撞撞


也許, 美是哀愁的出口


莫札特失去母親的五十幾年前,
Leonardo Leo (Lionardo Oronzo Salvatore de Leo, 1694-1744)
也是唱著優美的曲調, 說哀愁


If you cannot console me,
why torment me?
Why do you want to magnify the force of my grief?