野蠻與溫柔

我的大提琴老師半開玩笑說過,
理想的音樂家性格, 尤其是器樂演奏家,
是結合極度野蠻 (savage) 與無比溫柔 (tenderness)

 
什麼是野蠻或殘酷, 什麼是溫柔, 很難說清
但對我而言, 是無邊的熱情加上難以解釋的孤寂


Tennessee Williams 的 <玻璃動物園 (The Glass Menagerie)>
最後一段是這樣的……


(媽媽 Amanda又對著 Tom大吼,
 "你又要去看電影是嗎? 自私! 老是作夢! 你乾脆滾到月球上去算了!"
 Tom 吼了回去, 出了公寓, 在防火梯上的獨白) 



I didn’t go to the moon, I went much further—
for time is the longest distance between two spaces.
Not long after that I was fired for writing a poem on the lid of a shoe-box.

I left Saint Louis.
I descended the steps of this fire escape for a last time and followed,
from then on, in my father’s footsteps,
attempting to find in motion what was lost in space.

I traveled around a great deal.
The cities swept about me like dead leaves,
leaves that were brightly colored but torn away from the branches.
I would have stopped, but I was pursued by something.
It always came upon me unawares, taking me altogether by surprise.

Perhaps it was a familiar bit of music.
Perhaps it was only a piece of transparent glass.
Perhaps I am walking along a street at night, in some strange city,
before I have found companions.

I pass the lighted window of a shop where perfume is sold.
The window is filled with pieces of colored glass,
tiny transparent bottles in delicate colors, like bits of a shattered rainbow.

Then all at once my sister touches my shoulder.
I turn around and look into her eyes.

Oh, Laura, Laura, I tried to leave you behind me,
but I am more faithful than I intended to be!

I reach for a cigarette,
I cross the street,
I run into the movies or a bar,
I buy a drink,
I speak to the nearest stranger—
Anything that can blow your candles out!


(公寓裡的場景…..Laura 彎下腰, 靠近蠟燭)

For nowadays the world is lit by lightning!
Blow out your candles, Laura—
and so goodbye…….

(場景…..Laura 吹熄了蠟燭) 

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• 留言者: arkun
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• 日期: 2007-05-09 08:08:30

我也很喜歡玻璃動物園，因為很可以identify with Laura

的孤寂。剛好這個週末在嘉義有南風劇團的演出。



http://www.cyhg.gov.tw/excise1.asp?

activities_id=759

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• 留言者: arkun
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• 日期: 2007-05-11 07:25:04

這一篇真是勾起許多回憶啊。

雖然我一直記不起到底在哪裡看玻璃動物園的。倒是清楚的記

得在一家dinner theater看的Lost in Yonkers，裡頭的

Bella與Laura的處境相似，都被母親的oppressive love壓

得喘不過氣了。（那一次date的細節也歷歷如繪。）

還曾經在戲院裡被一齣簡簡單單的stage reading給感動

了，只模糊記得似乎是Jane Anderson的作品，一直記不起

來劇名是什麼。

說起來，曾經是那樣的被藝文活動給寵壞了的啊！